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Should I or shouldn't I?

This is the million dollar question looming in my head right now. Its been almost one week since I left AKU and I am pretty much settled in my home (or so I like to believe). Interestingly I haven't had a very bad depression as was expected or as some of my friends have had. Inspite of the fact that I am the only one in this city all cut from the rest of the world or should I say adequately buffered from the modern living standards that have dictated my life for the past five years. What is still more amazing is the fact that I am the only one who seems to have suffered the most prominent social change of us all dudes. But I am having the least feeling of depression or remorse or I don't know what. It could be that I am so used to living in lowest of low moods that this change of environment has become a happy change for me. One thing is definite and that my parents have been pretty helpful in making me feel at home I guess. The other and much nearer to truth fact could be my own nature. Things hit me slow and steady. Everything comes in late and then takes a gazzilion years to leave. The scar never ever leaves. Thus I am in a limbo waiting for the 'great depression' to come hit me and I be over with it.
   I am planning to start my USMLE prep sooner than may. I plan to finish my first revision of the major subjects before my graduation inshaAllah. If this plan works I will be able to make four revisions before I appear for the exam in April next year. so the question is should I start my studies or should I just relax for another week?

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