A bullet and a soldier

Soldiers have an inevitable and unavoidable relationship with their guns.  Mostly because these very guns are their bread and butter.  These are the instruments of stability in their lives in some way.  Without a gun a soldier is not a soldier just as without a wing a plane is not a plane.  A bullet is a direct and sometimes a very violent consequence of having a gun around.  But no one will argue with the fact that bullet is the only significant consequence of a gun so it should be assumed that a soldier has a same relationship with a bullet as the one he has with his gun.  Guns and bullets are synonymous.  Neither is useful without the other.  So it should be interesting to know what would a soldier feel like without a gun while facing a bullet.  Apart from the horror of death that is incumbent upon almost all of us there should be other feelings that come across a soldier who has to face enemy's bullet but has no gun of his own.  How do soldiers that are killed in an ambush in a city after they have retired feel during the last few moments of their lives.
The reason this thought came into my mind is that I was reading a letter written by a daughter of a recently killed general of Pakistan army.  He was ambushed while on his way to work.  His daughter is very sure that her dad would have wished that he had his gun during his last moments to return the fire.  I just thought what else would he be thinking.  I have absolutely no idea.  But I just think.