I have been a little busy of late. Been to Islamabad and enjoyed the marvelous weather over there, for a very short while that I was there. Applied for my visa too in the meanwhile. I hope to be awarded one by the first of the next month if everything goes as planned and hoped.
One thing that I have so realized in this short trip of mine is the fact that this place is worst than anywhere could be. One doesn't realize the misery until he gets an outside perspective to hold onto. For the past five odd months I have been bogged down by excessive work and failures at multiple points and more. Hiccups see no end! Even then there was little realization on my part that I needed to get a break from these needless stresses.Most certainly pain has its own way of keeping you addicted to it. I had become an addict. Simple and plain. I still am.
For some odd reason Hasan Bin Saba and his dramatic heaven have occupied my mind since yesterday. The idea keeps on spinning around in my mind and I see many analogies to the same that disheartens me even more.
Then there arose this theory about schizophrenics. For the sake of my theory suppose that schizophrenics have brains that work at a higher baseline than a normal brain would. This, I say is, something genetically inherited by such brains or environmentally triggered. And now the brain of a schizophrenic, in order to keep itself working at a higher baseline, creates a a world of its own in a certain portion to which it dedicates certain amount of processing. That world is Schizophrenic's other world of pseudo reality. From the little knowledge that I have about the disease (huh and then I say I am a doctor!) I know that the symptoms experienced by the schizophrenics are all pseudo phenomenon which mostly obey natural laws. Since our brains are tied by space and time thus there hallucinations and paranoia obey worldly laws of nature. Science supports the idea by proving that schizophrenic brains have higher activity levels than normal brains. So can it be that schizophrenia is brain's way of keeping itself busy. Brain's game to keep itself involved, maybe.
One thing that I have so realized in this short trip of mine is the fact that this place is worst than anywhere could be. One doesn't realize the misery until he gets an outside perspective to hold onto. For the past five odd months I have been bogged down by excessive work and failures at multiple points and more. Hiccups see no end! Even then there was little realization on my part that I needed to get a break from these needless stresses.Most certainly pain has its own way of keeping you addicted to it. I had become an addict. Simple and plain. I still am.
For some odd reason Hasan Bin Saba and his dramatic heaven have occupied my mind since yesterday. The idea keeps on spinning around in my mind and I see many analogies to the same that disheartens me even more.
Then there arose this theory about schizophrenics. For the sake of my theory suppose that schizophrenics have brains that work at a higher baseline than a normal brain would. This, I say is, something genetically inherited by such brains or environmentally triggered. And now the brain of a schizophrenic, in order to keep itself working at a higher baseline, creates a a world of its own in a certain portion to which it dedicates certain amount of processing. That world is Schizophrenic's other world of pseudo reality. From the little knowledge that I have about the disease (huh and then I say I am a doctor!) I know that the symptoms experienced by the schizophrenics are all pseudo phenomenon which mostly obey natural laws. Since our brains are tied by space and time thus there hallucinations and paranoia obey worldly laws of nature. Science supports the idea by proving that schizophrenic brains have higher activity levels than normal brains. So can it be that schizophrenia is brain's way of keeping itself busy. Brain's game to keep itself involved, maybe.
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